Wow, I must say this week has been a busy week for me.
Monday I had class outing which did not feel like class outing because only 6 people turned up. haha. after that some of us were suppose to discuss our project, in the end, we went KBOX! LOL. It was just so random!
Tuesday i went to school because I didn't want to remain at home. If not i'll start to hallucinate or hyperventilate. Meet up with yiguang, wolf and jon to do blaw while they did bmgt. Went to out space, saw Brandon, Pris and Matt told them im going out today and then TRIED doing DSS but failed because i was just too tired! haha basically sometimes, my life is a real bore! Not only, just busy with my projects which are due soon (omgosh! help me!), I have been heading out. haha. My craze for shopping is back again! AFTERMATH syndrome! I'M just numb. I went with faith to mango and i spent $100 without feeling a pinch in my heart. I JUST FEEL SO NUMB!! It's just so WRONG WRONG WRONG!I'm so exhausted.
Today, we had an Ambassadors outing, proudly organised by Matthew (anyone who doesn't know him, PS, his the poster boy), we went to watch kung fu panda and we had bowling. omg i seriously suck at bowling! F.Y.I. ,never place a bet with him, his just too good! He basically trashed everyone! HAHA and btw Matt, rmb on the train you ask me and ben our truthful feeling: Why Ambassadors? The answer i gave you was my secondary answer which i though it was my primary answer. So on my way walking home, i rethink about the question. my true answer would be to find the real me. I dont know why but i think the "me" everyone is looking at, is just a cover up like a mask. My heart tells me that the real me is somewhere out there but i have yet to find it. In a way, I'm hope-ing that in Ambassadors, I can find "me". yeap (:
Honestly what will become of me.
Don't like reality.
It's way too clear to me.
But really life is daily.
We are what we don't see.
Missed everything daydreaming.
Flames to dust.
Lovers to friends.
Why do all good things come to an end?
Does life have to be like this?
Perhaps they do. Perhaps they don't. No one knows.
LIFE IS SO MYSTERIOUS.
IT SECRETS ARE NEVER UNFOLD.
My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry.
It was just so wrong.
I should have never let you hold me.
I should have never let you hold me.
Your scent & the feel of your arms still lingers on
I hate it. Please i beg of you, take them along with you.
Let me go. I can take it no more.
I'll falling from pure exhaustion.
Please take them along.
I'm tired.
Please just go.
