Last Thursday; the last night
I got freaked out by you when I accidentally dozed off on the couch. When I woke up few mins later all i see was you face 5cm away from mine. the next thing you said was go and sleep. haha! i think i was just to tired to rebuttal so i just nodded my head, walked towards my bed and bury myself under the covers. I woke up halfway when you were covering me cos my blanket rolled down until waist level. at the same time placed the bolster under my arms. after that i dozed back for a few seconds UNTIL when you switch off the lights i pop up from bed. I THINK I WOKE UP AGAIN! LOL unless im dreaming. hah! anyway i have no idea why man but ya. you noticed and walked towards me and asked why? I answered with a small moan saying nothing and i went back to sleep. HAHAH! funny! LOL but anyway what i wanted to say was you were really sweet.
When i woke up the first time i kinda gleams into you eyes for awhile ,i couldn't see clearly cos i was w/o my glasses but i think I saw care & concern shimmering out from your eyes. aww so sweet. haha! but then again.
I'm touch by your actions.
Thank you
Last Saturday & Sunday
I met my bestie, she is like a sister to me and I told her I confused if I'm liking someone. Many people told me not to fall for him cos he is not so simple. While at anyway case, she added that I have to look within myself and find the answers I'm seeking for. After a while she added, "Pam, you just like playing with fire and always look for danger." I kept silent for a while and though back. Actually what she says does makes sense. But what to do? haha! I'm looking for a roller coaster ride.
I was on MSN with you and our topics were about everything and literally everything. So I told you what my sister told me; ahhah! and you were asking me what kinda of fire. So ya that was how the topics heated up. LOL. I told you that I THINK I'm falling for someone but I'm confused with the feeling I'm having. You asked who but all i said was sorry, i need to confirm my feelings first then PERHAPS i will let you know. So I changed the topic to ask about you. asking if you have anyone in mind; hahaaa what you said was, you never though about liking or looking for some one now. Now that you have all your friends, gf is not what you have been thinking about. so I just left it that way not pursuing anymore. it was after you said this i had this weird warm feeling in my heart.
You said i was too innocent. as for you, you don't even want to hurt me. You just can't bare to hurt me.
When I heard it, i was lost for words. I was shocked like seriously shocked. You said you bully me, but you care. I added saying that you seem to care for everyone you bully. You said I'm one who you pays more attention to. You added that I have your word, no matter how much I don't know about you, you wont play me out. In actual fact, its not that i do not trust you, or maybe its just that I really do not know you well enough to judge you.
I do trust you, but for a player to say this, I'm just surprised.
Thank you is all that I want to say.
I was on MSN with you and our topics were about everything and literally everything. So I told you what my sister told me; ahhah! and you were asking me what kinda of fire. So ya that was how the topics heated up. LOL. I told you that I THINK I'm falling for someone but I'm confused with the feeling I'm having. You asked who but all i said was sorry, i need to confirm my feelings first then PERHAPS i will let you know. So I changed the topic to ask about you. asking if you have anyone in mind; hahaaa what you said was, you never though about liking or looking for some one now. Now that you have all your friends, gf is not what you have been thinking about. so I just left it that way not pursuing anymore. it was after you said this i had this weird warm feeling in my heart.
You said i was too innocent. as for you, you don't even want to hurt me. You just can't bare to hurt me.
When I heard it, i was lost for words. I was shocked like seriously shocked. You said you bully me, but you care. I added saying that you seem to care for everyone you bully. You said I'm one who you pays more attention to. You added that I have your word, no matter how much I don't know about you, you wont play me out. In actual fact, its not that i do not trust you, or maybe its just that I really do not know you well enough to judge you.
I do trust you, but for a player to say this, I'm just surprised.
Thank you is all that I want to say.
I miss you company here; especially during the night.
The times you acted like a kid just made me grow more fond towards you. It made me want to protect you somehow. It made me want to hold you so tightly, to hold you safe and sound from all you troubles. I don't mind being your human pillow to cry on or to hold on. oh my i sound like a granny. ==" I just want you to know that I will be there for you no matter what happens ya. (:
haha! if your reading this i think you'll be laughing at me now.
The times you acted like a kid just made me grow more fond towards you. It made me want to protect you somehow. It made me want to hold you so tightly, to hold you safe and sound from all you troubles. I don't mind being your human pillow to cry on or to hold on. oh my i sound like a granny. ==" I just want you to know that I will be there for you no matter what happens ya. (:
haha! if your reading this i think you'll be laughing at me now.
I used to say you were a hard nut to crack and when you are ready you will eventually step out of your safety zone. I didn't expect you to crack to fast. Last night you confesses to many things at one shot! I was surprised cos judging from you personality and character, i though you would have done it slowly. But I;m glad you did. I appreciated that. Really, I do. I'm glad to be there and have rendered a listening ear for you.
Just remember, I'll be here for you no matter what happens (:
You gave my your word before; So now i give you mine.
You have my word.
Not from a friend to a friend
Neither is it from a sibling to a sibling
But to one who just need a hug.
