being simple as it should be
more than enough to understand
like my permanent underwears

Sunday, January 18, 2009

If only

If only I know who you are.
If only I know what you want.
If only I know what you are thinking.
If only I know I am always there for you.
If only I know your real emotions.
If only I know I am the one you're looking for.
If only I know what I want.
If only I know what my true feelings are.
If only I know where I should have stepped in & draw the line.
If only at times life doesn't make a mockery out of me.

I wouldn't feel so exhausted and lack of air.
I wouldn't be all confused and lost.

If only I have you here with me, holding me
Tell me with care in your eyes that everything is going to be alright.
I would have drifted away from my thoughts.

Reunion Dinner Cum Gathering

Chinese New Year is like 2 weeks away.
This year's CNY apparently is FREAKING early!
So many things to do, so little time.

If I had 3 wishes,
I will wish for time to slow down,
wish to remember all fun times together,
wish for everything to go smoothly.

CATS presentation is this coming Wed
BCOMM OP2 is TOMORROW!
ITB, MIEC is week 16!

Finals are arriving.
Cousin is migrating to Australia.
Papa Kenny, Kor Kor Jon are leaving NP; awaiting to go to the army,
Will hardly see them again especially Jon when he goes overseas to pursue his dream.
Have to register for driving.
And I need you here. (To random person because I have no idea who I need)

Ytd's reunion dinner was at my granny's place. After lao-ing YuSheng and eating abit.
I had to leave early to go to Sean Chi's place for a grp 3 gathering.
haha! YES FINALLY RIGHT!? I realised.
I brought awfully chocolate as dessert. haha!
PLUS ICE CREAM TOO!
My dad fetched me there.
So when I arrived,
Sly, Jocelyn, Nik, Azizah, Brandon, Shirley, Faith, Sean, Jon & Mark were there.
Mark was thrown into the water when I arrived.
Oh and btw I was not spared.
THEY WERE PERSISTENT!
I struggled like CRAZY as if I was saving my life.
1st attempt I managed to free myself.
I was kicking super crazily like riding bicycle like tat ahaha!
Brandon had problems catching my legs!!
The 2nd attempt they were smarter. =="
Jon held down my legs.
I think it was faith who was behind me.
Same old same old. I struggled.
Screaming that I will go down later because I have a lot of things on me.
They were brutal!
Force me to remove my stuff and MAKE SURE I NEVER RUN AWAY!
So yea.
I had to remove bangle's from both hands, my ear rings, my belt and handphone from my pocket.
SEE THE NUMBER OF STUFF I HAD TO REMOVE!
like i said they were PERSISTENT!
After that I cannot really remember how they managed to throw me into the pool.
But yea bottom line, i did get wet at the end of the day!
THE FUNNIEST THING WAS MARK!!!
He was like PAM stop struggling, my arms are tired!!!
Jon was panting and was tired. He was like your darn hard to be drag into the pool.
Brandon he went into the pool with his dry pants!==" ahahah comical!
So yea the entire party ended like 11.
Dropped Azizah, Sly and Shirley at redhill mrt station before going back to my granny's place. They were still gambling man!
I played 2 rounds of mahjong. haha!!
i took over my auntie and i was an amature @ using the chips.
when the game ended i lost 7 i think.
then i was suppose to pay my uncle.
so he was like ohh u have to pass me 7.
I TELL YOU IT WAS SO EMBARRASSING!!
I pass him 7 dollars of chips!!!! hahah!!!
where in actual fact i had to give him 7 dollars CASH! =="
my brother and my uncle were laughing at me lah!!!
then i was like huh... its real money ar. okok!! haah!!!
so yea by the time I reached home was 1 plus close 2.

Showered

Changed

All geared up to crash the bed.

Said good nights & Hugs

Off I went drifted soundly to sleep.

Friday, January 16, 2009

I'll be there with you (:

You walked with me,

Footprints in the sand,

And helped me understand,

Where I'm going,

You walked with me,

When I was all alone,

With so much unknown,

Along the way,

Then I heard you say,

I promise you,

I'm always there,

When your heart is filled with sorrow,

And despair,

I'll carry you

When you need a friend

You'll find my footprints in the sand.



Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Random Facts

Yes CATS assignment is like 90% done!!!
We're left with compilation of our final report.
OHHH I have to do my self-reflection in a creative manner! haha!
I NEED MY CREATIVE JUICES TO FLOW SOON!
Weeeeee~
Can't wait until it is over! Woot!
Chinese New Year is around the corner.
This means that FINALS ARE COMING TOO!!! :(
ARGH~~
SAVE ME~ Sigh. o.O
But on a brighter side, 7 WEEKS,
7 LONGGGGGGGGGG WEEKS
of break is arriving! :)
I'm gonna PAMPER MYSELF LIKE CRAZY MAN!!!!!
BUT ARGH, I'M GONNA BE A YEAR 2. Sounds old. ==" sigh.
But apparently I don't look like my age, it's quite depressing actually.
Anyway, I'm gonna register for driving soon man! HAHA!!!
Drive to school and then home. (:
OKAY! LAST BUT NOT LEAST,
CONGRATULATIONS~~~
TO MY GOD -BROTHER:
JON CHIA (:
FOR PASSING HIS DRIVING!
(See I spell your name correctly this time okay! ==")
This also means that
YOU HAVE TO DRIVE ME AROUND!!!!
WAHAHHAH!!!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Guess! (:

Guess where am I now?
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Are you guessing?
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Come on I know you can tell where I am! Haha!
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Still can't guess? hmmmm......
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Alright I shall tell you where I am now. (:
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I AM IN FFA LECTURE! AND I'M DYING OF BOREDOM BECAUSE THE LESSON IS RATHER DRY.
Sigh...

Monday, January 12, 2009

Its been 2 days since Open House ended. A lot of things happen throughout the 3 days. For me I personally feel that I have gain more confidence especially speaking in front of large crowds. Although my first attempt was horrendous, the next few tries I feel myself improving.

Anyway I was posted to CB a.k.a. Chartered Bus; Emcee. This means that schools that did not register with Ngee Ann's CT a.k.a. Customised tour, I will be emceeing to them for a total of 1 minute and showing them the video. anyway my speech is like this:

Hi Everyone! I'm Pamela, a year 1 Accountancy student from the school of Business and Accountancy also known as Sch of BA.

First and foremost, a warm welcome to Ngee Ann Polytechnic! (:

A video has been specially made for you guys, yes specially for you guys only, to let your have a inside feel of how poly life is like. Please sit back, relax ans enjoy.

(Video Screening)

Yup! So as mention above, don't miss out our special program @ the atruim

Also don't miss out a few of our highlights.
1. Course Counselling @ level 1, which is just above

2. Don't forget to grab ur goodie bags @ outspace@72

3. Catch our wonderful CCA fiesta held and the atruim

4. Last but not least, hop on to our facility tour buses for a campus tour

Once again, I'm Pamela, your emcee for today. Enjoy your day in NP! (:

Please proceed out using the front exit door and our ushers will usher you up to the CC where from there is free and easy.

So yea basically that is my speech. haha!

It was sad for the year 3 seniors as it is their last Open house. At the last hour, seniors were giving their goodbye speech. The room was filled with laughter, regrets, remorse, last words, tears & emotions. Some were crying, haha I was at my brim of crying too but I held back my tears. And when everything ended I went for dinner with Dian, Sherlyn and Jon Chia. I was practically stoning lah while eating my food. I'm so exhausted.

Well anyway when I reached home, I felt lost for a moment. I realised he was around no more. Because for pass 3 days. You went home together with me.

For the pass 3 days all sorts of funny things happened - Crazy Nights; Stupid situations; Retarded actions; Unpleasant smelling things, napping on my lap while me playing with your hair. hahah!!! Things that I normally don't experience at home with family. So when I went home after dinner. I realised that chances of it happening again is rather slim. It was then, I realised you weren't there anymore. I miss your presence here. I told that, I have no idea why but every time once you leave, I will always wish you had never and when you did, I miss you badly.

Because I feel rather attached to you as a sister. You leaving either later or now, it will still be the same as some part of me is missing. hahaha! sorry that I make it so depressing!! But I want to say now. LOL! Just in case I never have a chance to say in the future if you really do go overseas and stuff like that and me seeing you again is like finding a needle in a haystack. HAHAHAH!!! like seriously I don't want to make it sound so depressing but I don't want to every regrate not saying when your gone. I felt that I should grab hold of any opportunities now an let you know.

(Silence & awaiting)

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Adrenaline rush

NGEE ANN OPEN HOUSE
STARTS TOMORROW LASTING 3 DAYS
I'M FEELING BUTTERFLIES IN MY TUMMY.
ARGH!
1 Day Away
24 Hours Away
1440 Minutes Away
86,400 Seconds Away



ADRENALINE RUSH!!!!

Monday, January 05, 2009

SIEW MAI!

I CALLED SZERUI A.K.A. ELYSHA




SIEW MAI







BY MISTAKE @ ECP GATHERING ON THE


2 JANUARY 2009

HAHAHAHAH!!! CATALYST TOTALLY WENT WRONG MAN!!!!!!!

I'm currently sitting in Canteen 1 waiting for time to pass until 6.

Open House is 3 days away.

Feeling the Adrenaline rush now.



Faites vous vous souvenez de moi (Do you remember me)
Je me suis assis sur votre genou (I sat upon your knee)
Je vous ai écrit (I wrote to you)
Avec les fantaisies d'enfance (With childhood fantasies)
Bien, je suis tout développé maintenant (Well, I'm all grown up now)
Et ayez toujours besoin de l'aide d'une manière ou d'une autre (And still need help somehow)
Je ne suis pas un enfant (I'm not a child)
Mais mon coeur peut toujours rêver (But my heart still can dream)
Comme les enfants nous avons cru (As children we believed)
La vue grandest pour voir (The grandest sight to see)
Était quelque chose de joli (Was something lovely)
Emballé au-dessous de notre arbre (Wrapped beneath our tree)
Bien le ciel sait seulement (Well heaven only knows)
Ces paquets et révérences (That packages and bows)
Ainsi voici mon désir de toute une vie (So here's my lifelong wish)
Ma liste développée de Noël (My grown up christmas list)
Juste pour être son, même s'il est depuis un jour.

Ainsi voici mon désir de toute une vie (So here's my lifelong wish)
Ma liste développée de Noël (My grown up christmas list)

Sunday, January 04, 2009

ECP Gathering

I went to east coast park for a gathering. Seconday school. Kinda miss the old group of friends.

The crazy us.
The manipulative us.
The always slack from time to time but work our ass for us.
The tend to get in r/s within our grp us.
haha! those were the days.


Everything started off slow
Girls being the usual let the guys do the work
Ben, Nat, Rui


Nat, Me, Rui
Girls as usual waits for food.


Nat being unglam!




John carrying me. ahah! Couple gone wrong.


Me, John, Rui



I love these shots! Credit to me!

Rui, Jordan, Rene, Yh
So basically i shot most of the pics. shot a total of 200 plus close 300.
We should organise one more soon!!! (:

New Year Resolution

HAVE A BLASTING 2009 EVERYONE!
Issues that have to be done this year
  • Be focus on task at hand
  • Save up for digital cam
  • Have sufficient time for myself
  • Have sufficient time for my dance
  • Have sufficient air to breath

LASTLY

My New Year Resolution for myself is

TO HAVE TOTAL CONTROL OF MY FEELINGS.

DON'T LET MY HEART RULE OVER ME

NO MATTER HOW MUCH I FEEL LIKE CRYING

NO MATTER HOW DEPRESS I'M

NO MATTER HOW MUCH HATRED I'M FEELING

NO MATTER HOW MUCH LONGING I WANT FOR HIM

NO MATTER HOW MUCH FAILURE I'M FACING

NO MATTER HOW MUCH ATTACHED FEELINGS I HAVE HIM

NO MATTER HOW MUCH ATTENTION I WANT FROM HIM.

NO MATTER HOW MUCH I DEMAND FROM HIM

NO MATTER WHAT FANTASIES I'M LIVING IN, WAKE UP!

Be my old self.

Pam find back the old you.

Find back the STRONG, INDEPENDENT, DISCIPLINE, BUBBLY & OUTGOING Pam.

Find back the old Pam when she used to be able to hide her emotions from time to time.

This is my New Year Resolution for myself this 2009.