Sunday, March 01, 2009

Okay! Exams have officially ended on the 27 Feb but I couldn't update yet because I had to come home quickly write messages for the year 3: Nikki, Jon Chia, Jess, Ira, Raymond and Jocelyn. Apparently I had problems writing because I had no idea what to write for them. It's so sad that it's their final and they are leaving.

Oh btw I just woke up. And I can't really process what I'm writing now because I'm still a little stone and I'm crying while writing this. So I'm kinda gonna try let it be short and sweet.

3 days 2 nights Ambassadorial Retreat Camp

A time whereby all of us reflect on ourselves on why did we join ambassadors.
A time whereby a new president of Ambassador is elected/voted/selected.
A time whereby each AL be came their group's Leaders.
A time whereby new ALs are selected from potential year 1.
A time whereby year 3s have graduated.
All in all, the new excos of 09/10 was form today on this current date, 1 March 09

After which all groups have their individual meeting with their Ex-Leader, New leader & ALs.
Sarah Nat. You are one of the gem in Apache and we'll never forget you. Sincerely, I wish I've know you a a little more when you were still with us. Now you are the new AL of the Ninjas. You will be missed!

Emotions went crazy when Sarah hug each and everyone of us individually. Almost everyone of us were in tears. Initially I was able to control myself but the moment she stood up and hug us all individually, I couldn't take it anymore. It's the feeling of something is being forcefully removed from you. It came to our new Leaders & ALs to give their speech. Sam, Ning & Faith just to let you know we will always be supporting you!

We were kinda suppose to talk individually but there was not enough time. So it was OTOT. I was fine during that time Deb & I went to take our envelopes. I went to find Sam after that. Congratulate her. But the moment I started hugging her, I started to cry again. I was telling her that I'll support her all the way & it's sometimes not that I don't want to talk to her but I just don't know how to approach her. She was telling me she had the same problems too. And we say we'll work things out. After that I couldn't stop crying. I went to look for Dian & Azizah and started hugging them so that I can stop crying. But the moment I did. I just couldn't stop tearing. Anizah and Stella where there too. When they hugged me, I started to cry even more. Okay so I managed to control my emotions for just a while before Jon came. He was standing behind me and Azizah asking what we were doing. He saw me crying and I told him to stay away or I'll just start crying again. The moment he put his arms around my neck and pat my head, I started to cry again. I seriously felt like a water bucket today. He wanted to take a picture so I went along trying to control my tears. He placed his arms around my neck and when Anizah just counted 1... I couldn't take it anymore. I stared Crying again. I couldn't hold back my tears. But finally I think I managed to take a picture. Oh my, super unglam. I just couldn't stop crying. I went to look for Faith and tell her that she will be a great AL just believe in yourself. I cried the moment I hugged her. I approached Ning and told her that she will be a good AL & I cried the moment I hugged her again. The moment I approached Nikki, I started crying again although I know that I will be still seeing her again. And what you told me, I'll keep it in my heart. Looked for Jon, gave him a hug. He ask me to stop crying again. I said no more tears to cry. I told him when he does go to Australia, remember to keep in contact and don't forget me. I went around hugging people, talking to them. I was rather reluctant to leave but I left together with Deb @ ard 215. Yve drove, so on the way, Yve dropped us off at the atrium. Thanks Yve. And my dad picked both of us there.

I have never felt so emotional in my life.
I truly regret not knowing some of the people.
I can somehow understand now why seniors say treasure it while you still have it.
It's a time of goodbyes and Hellos.
Its a moment worth the remembrance.
Ambassadors have made a great difference in my life.

Ambassadors, thank you.