Saturday, June 28, 2008

Omg I think today is a bad day for me. I should be happy since im meeting up with my dearest: Sze Rui, Natalie, Shao Yan, Daryl, Young Hwan and Ben, after sch today at westmall. We had so much to catch up today. It seems like ages when we saw each other today. I really do miss the times we spent together. With them around, all memories start to be refreshed in my head.

All Memories...

I suddenly felt so sad.
I miss you. I can't seem to let go.
It so annoying! I wanna cry! I wanna scream!
I keep on telling others to keep a positive attitude in life
BUT what about me? Why do my smiles seem so fake?
Why? Why? Why?
Omgosh seriously I dont know what else to do.
I saw you today, you didn't see me but you seemed fine.
I felt hurt. It felt as if the past memories didn't mean anything to you.

To me, your never forgotten...
To you, I'm forgotten...

I hate that I love you.

Friday, June 27, 2008

ISFP

(Introvert, Sensor, Feeler, Perceiver)

People of this type tend to be: kind, humble, and highly empathetic; thoughtful, faithful, and affectionate with those they know well; sensitive to criticism and easily hurt; quiet, soft-spoken, and gentle; adaptable, responsive, and curious; realistic and down to earth.

The most important thing to ISFPs is feeling peaceful and harmonious with the people and places that matter most to them.

Loving an ISFP

Be a patient and supportive listener; make it safe for me to speak my mind.
Appreciate my gentle, nurturing nature and ability to find joy in simple pleasures.
Express your love and affection freely and often!
Demonstrate your devotion in thoughtful actions.
Try not to nag me about order, or force decisions too quickly.
Above all - Show me you love me exactly the way I am.

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Sunday, June 22, 2008

Two Words (:

The last day of my 2 weeks vacation break.
A busy busy week for most of us.
I dont have much things to say now though.
Im just exhaused. I need a rest.
Good nights Everyone.

This is for anyone who feels like there is never a new day or it's the end of the world.

I have two words for you, "Think positive".

And SMILE. (:

A smile or a laughter blows ALL your worries away.

Live in the future not the past.

Yesterday is the past

Tomorrow is mystery

Today is a gift for god, that's why it's called present

A New Day
Author Unknown

If life seems at its lowest ebb,

Because a day's gone wrong.

Let not your heart be troubled,

For a new day soon will dawn

And we can never be quite sure,

Just what it has in store.

Since each one is so different,

Than the one just gone before

As it penetrates the darkness,

With its soft and tranquil beams.

It calms even the most restless soul,

And brings new hopes and dreams

So when a days been troubled,

And the night is dark and long.

Lift up your fallen spirits,

For a new day soon will dawn

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Busy Beeeeeeeee!

My cousin is getting married today! I'm so happy for him but at the same time i feel older.

When will my other cousins get married?

When is it my turn?

When will my brother get married?

When will the first grandchild be born?

SO many when, what, why, who , how questions are going on in my head.

Then it struck me,

growing up, getting married, a career, being parents and having children,

are part and parcel of life.

A phrase of life every one is bound to encounter.

Just like how the sun rise from the East, sets in the West.

Its a daily routine.

A Neverending Routine.

A draw 3 designs for the back of our T-shirt for SC recruitment drive.

I mearly copied and paste it. So i wouldnt say its 100% my own creativity.

BUT im proud that i can draw it!

By the time i finished this, it was 2 am! and gosh im so tired now.

Friday, June 20, 2008

3rd last day before the holiday starts

I went to school this morning for LMS project. I was the earliest! Manling, Ziyi and Sean were all late! So basically i just sat in the room and daze off. But after everyone came, we started and ended our project fast! and guess what i created half a story for our skit! haha. so cool. i didn't know that i was that creative. Anyway the 4 of us went to canteen 1 for lunch and we went separate ways. Ziyi i think he was meeting some friends. Sean and Manling went to take 52. I went to take 52 as well, but i had to cross the bridge. I was heading towards town to meet up with Lynette and Roysten. A small outing we had. We watch hulk. Not bad i would say. haha but i think im too tired that i ALMOST fell asleep in the theatre. but i would recommend it to ppl to watch. 3.5 to 4 stars! Oh oh i almost forgot, we bought shirts for our SC recuitment day. haha and im going to be drawing on it. oh my. i hope it turns out well.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

It's just another day like any other day, BUT today I'm going sit and mug! yes! MUG! You didn't hear me wrongly. I AM GOING TO BE A MUGGER FOR TODAY! If not i lagging behind. I have planned what to do today.

Breakfast
Shower
Look for stories for LMS
MacroEcon Presentation
Ambassador's Presentation
INFA
BLAW

Yes this is now it's going to be. I WILL DO IT! (:

I'm so tired even after hours of sleep.

I have no idea why.

Is every aftermath syndrome like this?

It feel so pathetic!

I have regain my freedom once more,

but somehow I dont feel free.

Instead, I feel stronger.

Ironic.

Labels: Plans

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Aftermath Syndrome

Wow, I must say this week has been a busy week for me.

Monday I had class outing which did not feel like class outing because only 6 people turned up. haha. after that some of us were suppose to discuss our project, in the end, we went KBOX! LOL. It was just so random!

Tuesday i went to school because I didn't want to remain at home. If not i'll start to hallucinate or hyperventilate. Meet up with yiguang, wolf and jon to do blaw while they did bmgt. Went to out space, saw Brandon, Pris and Matt told them im going out today and then TRIED doing DSS but failed because i was just too tired! haha basically sometimes, my life is a real bore! Not only, just busy with my projects which are due soon (omgosh! help me!), I have been heading out. haha. My craze for shopping is back again! AFTERMATH syndrome! I'M just numb. I went with faith to mango and i spent $100 without feeling a pinch in my heart. I JUST FEEL SO NUMB!! It's just so WRONG WRONG WRONG!I'm so exhausted.

Today, we had an Ambassadors outing, proudly organised by Matthew (anyone who doesn't know him, PS, his the poster boy), we went to watch kung fu panda and we had bowling. omg i seriously suck at bowling! F.Y.I. ,never place a bet with him, his just too good! He basically trashed everyone! HAHA and btw Matt, rmb on the train you ask me and ben our truthful feeling: Why Ambassadors? The answer i gave you was my secondary answer which i though it was my primary answer. So on my way walking home, i rethink about the question. my true answer would be to find the real me. I dont know why but i think the "me" everyone is looking at, is just a cover up like a mask. My heart tells me that the real me is somewhere out there but i have yet to find it. In a way, I'm hope-ing that in Ambassadors, I can find "me". yeap (:

Honestly what will become of me.
Don't like reality.
It's way too clear to me.
But really life is daily.
We are what we don't see.
Missed everything daydreaming.
Flames to dust.
Lovers to friends.
Why do all good things come to an end?
Does life have to be like this?
Perhaps they do. Perhaps they don't. No one knows.
LIFE IS SO MYSTERIOUS.
IT SECRETS ARE NEVER UNFOLD.

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry.
It was just so wrong.
I should have never let you hold me.
Your scent & the feel of your arms still lingers on
I hate it. Please i beg of you, take them along with you.
Let me go. I can take it no more.
I'll falling from pure exhaustion.
Please take them along.
I'm tired.
Please just go.

Monday, June 16, 2008

Sweetness, Sourness & Bitterness

How can I sing when my words have run dry.
How can I smile with a tear in my eyes.
Summer's so lost
When it's raining in June.
That how its feels now.
It stared off sweet ended off bitter with a tinge of sourness in the centre. Three Flavour I had during this period of time. But in the end, it ended off with bitterness. I would say this is life.
To fix it or not to fix it?
A frequent question ask. In the end the chosen one was not to fix OR it was just too much differences that no matter how much fixing there is, it cant be fixed.
I cant tell it now. It hurts. My tears glands was in too much shock to react.
After all I'm just a bird that cant be caged. I fly, flew and now I've flown.
That day, I could tell there was something wrong but I just brush it off.
Mayby i shouldn't. My mom predicted it was ending soon but being stubbon, I didn't heed her advice.

Still I would like to say it was an enjoyable short moment and you've made me stronger.
I hate the fact that it ended but I love the fact that it's a new beginning.
Ironically, THIS IS LIFE!

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

quick post!

just to post a random post now. gonna be MIA for 3 days. *girns im gonna miss u peeps!
are ur gonna miss me?? haha anyway now is 8.25 pm gonna make a quick post now gonna go out to watch KUNGFU PANDA! haha its kinda cute show. yeap. and i went to Ngee Ann for my first BA Society meets. WOW there are quite a number of activity. pray they dont clash with ambassadors! hmm but saw all the 8 grps today. haha i think we're gonna have LOTS of fun this yr! haha opssy gotta go change mom chasing me! yeap.
See you peeps soon! (:

Her thoughts, Her emotions, Her feelings

Sometimes you make me wonder.
Sometimes you make me confused.
Sometimes you seem to be here right next to me,
But yet i feel as if you are far away not within my gaps.

I'm so confused.
I'm so tired.
You left me wondering.
Your left me poundering.
I can't stand this madness no more.

It's so hard to tell what are you feeling.
Your keeping it hush to yourselves.
I want to be there for you.
But at some point your barrer is so hard to penertrate.

I want to try to tell you how I feel.
but I can't seem to do so.
Dont ask me why.
I just can't.

It's bad, I know
It ain't suppose to be like this.
Stop asking me why.
Because I just can't.

Sometimes it hurts so bad
that I want to wail out in tears,
However these tears don't seem to fall.
It's a horrible feeling.

I love you too much.
I didn't let my feelings known to you
Because i feel selfish
I know it sounds dumb
but I can't bare to let you see me suffering

I rather suffer alone
then see you suffer with me.
It hurts even worst when I see you do so.
I'm sorry for being selfish.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

8th June 2008
I was out with natalie. She randomly ask me if i wanted to catch a movie. I said why nt? (: haha anyway i was bored at home so i agreed. we met at clementi mrt station at 415 to catch the 545 movie at Vivo City but apprently it was FULL. so we ended up watching the 605 one. and our seat was at THE FIRST ROW! my neck is gonna break. haha but the movie was a bomb! The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian. The actor who act as Peter is so cute and edwin he reminds me of BENJAMIN. haha i told nat abt it and she say kinda. haha the movie ended abt 8 close to 9. we decided nt having dinner and head home cos we were kinda tired. so yeap and we catch up on old times. (:

9th June 2008
I went to Ngee Ann early inthe morning. GRRRR!!! so tired. but i have no choice to go because of the Inauguration session. ITS FOR THE AMBASSADORS! haha i gt in. was kinda shocked at the first place but oh well i gt in!!! haha and we have a TnB camp this upcoming thurs (12th June) to Sat (14th June). So sad i think i have to miss my brother's graduation this sat. wah! so not fair. he is graduation form OCS. OCS is like way grand lah! walao eh. hmm. but what to do if i dont go for the camp i cant be in the ambassadors. so glad that my brother understands (:
during the inauguration we meet our group mates. haha. we are new to each other but somehow it felt as if we know each other for yrs! after the inauguration session i met up with rui for lunch after i went to her place. we are so glad we have each other lah. if not we have no idea how to pass time. haha rui ar rui now u know how to directly connect the internet to ur laptop? (: haha

Saturday, June 07, 2008

Just another Post

Helllooo people! (: after CT im back for another post. haha anyway i went out on the day my final paper ended. and guess what i went out with the same person. FOR 3 WHOLE DAYS!!! i havent seen her ever since after the O's results. haha i guess its making up for it. and the girl is WAN XIN! yeap the one and only her. first day we went town. but we weren't satisfied with what we bought. i was looking for a swim wear and i saw it but when u see the pricing of the swim wear, ur eyes will POP out. and literally POP out! the price of just the upper part is $100++. but i love the colour. its blue but the colour gives people a calm feeling. from taka we headed to wisma to look at bags and flats but found nothing we like. then we headed to far east. we bought shades and i bought a scarf. yeap that is the first day.

The 2nd day, we decided to head out to vivo the next day but the same thing vivo we couldnt find what we wanted. i guess this season's clothes, bags, shoes, literally everything anit tat good. at the same time, i went around scouting for bermbs for my dear. i had problems because, bermbs aint 3 quartars and aint shorts. so i kinda needed wan xin's help. haha in case i see the wrong kind of pants. =X. since vivo is link to harbour front we went there for dinner. and we managed to get our flats. i had to get mine quick cos my old pair has become a "scary crocodile". =.=" haha. yeap. since we had nthing we needed at vivo and harbour front we went to bugis street. bugis street feels like bangkok! but the singapore version one. only on the 2nd day we felt satisfied. i have no idea why but i mean real satisfaction compared to the first day.

i got 2 bags, a shirt and a belt from bugis street!

hurhur. there was a blissful feeling for a moment!

haha (: but come to think of it, it's a litter over exsagerating. hmmm. im on shopping spree influence by SZERUI!!

*BEWARE OF HER SHOPPING DISEASE!!

hmm as for the 3rd day which is today. i just went to clarke quay alone to watch wu shu performance. haha do i dont look like i LOVE wu shu? i LOVE it so much but just tat i cant learn because of my back problem. kinda sad.

BUT it's alright because i still have my dear Jerry (: , dance and my dearest friends:

Sze Rui, Serene, Natalie, John, Shao Yan, Daryl, Benjamin, Young Hwan!

You peeps, are someone I'll Never Forget! (:

LOL i think it doesnt link, but whatever the case i still love them loads!! (:

anyway today is just watching a performance at a community club. its to celebrate the dumpling festival. but WX and i left early cos it became boring in the end. we left ard 830. headed to the nearest shopping centre cos we were STARVING. we had long john silver. after tat we went home. was suppose to take 190 but in the end wx gt tempted by me to take the mrt. muhaha! so yeap. we took mrt home instead.